I had forgotten how deep it cuts

Short of breath, my heart flutters wildly

A pain suppressed, tears assault my eyes

This, i cant disguise

It beats against my ribcage

Nay, it thunders against my chest

Its so loud, like a bass beat put to the test

It wants to be set free and paint my pain

Across the sky,

It  wants to scream why

I breathe heavily

To control the battle that rages in me

The slashes gashing across my heart

The pain searing, painting a dark art

Leaving no scars,

But burning like coal tar

Oh it hurts, it hurts

I had forgotten how deep it cuts

They say it heals with time

But this to me, is a mime

For the reason my heart bleeds

Is with me all the time

No other has your heart

For how can It be a breather

When it is not mine either

You melted my iron and carved a better me

And now, when you unveil your art

There is no heart

For in making me, you hurt too much

The weather mirrors how I feel today

For only in the rain, can I cry

For me, for you, for we

And show nobody

I shall not beg for your heart

For it alone decides

Where it resides

So I shall instead say,

Sorry, Thank you and Goodbye

Louder and louder till I cant ignore it no more

What is it heart that troubles you so…

Why do the drums beat and rattle the rib cage

Why doesn’t the caged bird sing no more

I know not the storm that threatens

But my fist I tighten

For I have felt like this before

Sometimes it was a chore

Sometimes it has meant more

See with me and not your eyes it cries out

I do not understand it but I feel it

And until the drums cease

My heart I must appease